So I’m wide awake around midnight Wednesday morning. I’m scrolling through Instagram and I see the Maxim cover girl contest. I send in some photos and think nothing of it as I sip my Crown Royal (aka my water). The next morning, I get a text saying that I qualified to compete. What?!?? So nowContinue reading “MAXIM MAGAZINE?”
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Darkness
No one gives 2 fucks about me. Why? It’s bc no one really knows me. They like the idea of me. The parts of me that I put on display. But it’s never the full me. I’m not dumb enough to show that. So if someone says they care about me…it’s automatic doubt that popsContinue reading “Darkness”
Boobs!
My heart is literally pounding. This is unbelievable. The same building where I wrote a letter about a boob job, I’m now on the phone 5 years later setting the date! I’m on hold, but I have butterflies in my stomach and I may be getting a headache! Yes I do love and embrace myContinue reading “Boobs!”
Fuck to Feel
To remind myself that I’m here, I fuck. To remind me of the power I have, I fuck. To remind myself of how great of a fuck I am, I fuck someone else instead of myself. I don’t want a relationship. I don’t want drama. I don’t care about your feelings and I don’t haveContinue reading “Fuck to Feel”
My New Normal Part 2
Now that we are already halfway through 2020, I’ve been contemplating the world around me. When I wrote “My New Normal” 3MONTHS ago, I didn’t know what my future would look like. Yesterday, the mayor of Tampa made it a requirement to wear face masks in public that can be met with a fine if notContinue reading “My New Normal Part 2”
Racism…Return to Sender
I remember watching the Furgeson riots on CNN in buffalo ny and my heart just breaking. I recall finally going to the store for no reason so I could get away from watching it on the TV screen. I couldn’t believe that what I read in history books in elementary school about the mid 1900’sContinue reading “Racism…Return to Sender”
Weeds
She wasn’t ready to end the game. She was addicted to the thrill, the chase, the stolen hidden moments. She was addicted to not knowing who may come around the corner or what may happen next. It was never about a “win” for her. She didn’t want the “trophy.” Too much maintenance and she hadContinue reading “Weeds”
May 7th
May 7th. I chose that date for my wedding because the weather would be mild and because 7 is my favorite number. My ex husband’s birthday is May 9th. Today is May 6th. Have you ever wanted something to bad, that the anticipation seems unbearable? That you begin to think it won’t happen? That’s aContinue reading “May 7th”
Quarantine
Six weeks of quarantine. Looking back on it, I have more positives than negatives. But the gravity of the situation amazes me. Never in my wildest dreams did I think it’d be possible to essentially shut down America and other countries around the world. It’s like something out of a movie. The first week IContinue reading “Quarantine”
My New Normal
It’s been exactly 1 week since my world was altered. I currently lay on the lounge chair by the pool that my ex husband and his neighbor gained access to. Most pools and playgrounds are closed all across America for the most part. They had his friend’s daughter go over the fence and unlock itContinue reading “My New Normal”
The Whitest Black Girl 